I actually thought that helping others will give me some good karma… I mean, all over….don’t get me wrong, it’s not why I did it! But what’s wrong with the picture when the carnage seems to run you over with sarcastically stupidity from people you thought you knew🙈
Okey, I know I sound a bit bitter here and this post has more positive vibes if you bother to read the rest though…..
My point is that I’ve learned so much and I fought fights that wasn’t even mine . Because I felt it was worth the time and effort. And still I felt left behind . The curtains came down before my act even started sometimes and I never got the chance to bow….
But now I’m not that person. I wanna go up and forward. I’m scared as hell, but wanna try new things. Wanna go back to start work and build up a new me…. and guess what: I’m gonna make it. Maybe not everything will go as I wish it planned, but at least I’m doing it!!!
I have so much support around me but only me can do the final work ..I wanna make myself proud again. Going from observing to acting is my mission now. Even if I failing more than I want to, I will keep on trying. No one but me can put me down…