Can’t finish what I start…

Im sitting here with my fiancé next to me. We are having are typical Sunday… football, some sweets and ofc we had egg and bacon for breakfast .

And as usual my mind is wandering off and a thought hit me. It’s not the first time I have been thinking this , but wanted to share it with you….

I can’t finish what I’ve started!!!!

Haha sounds like I have like a million projects half done, but noooo… My problem is I want so much and I forget to take in to account that my days can turn so fast. When I’m having my good days I can decide to do a lot of things, then my anxiety or depression put a stop for it all!!! I can sometimes last a few weeks, even a couple of months. Then I get a really bad period and it feels unbearable to start all over again.

All of you who struggles with something knows that’s our story. We get down, pick up the pieces and start building our selves up again… and again… aaaand again….

Take for example working out. I love to do it , to have that awesome feeling afterwards makes my energy goes up in the roof… for a short while… I used to work out 5-6 days a week. My meals were so healthy and good. Lost weight and felt awesome for some time. Then I hit the wall again and now I try to get back there. But it seams I’ve lost the road…

Why is it so hard for me to keep on doing things I know I want and that’s good for me? Many would say I’m lazy or just not that on to it!!! But well they don’t know me, what I do every day or how bad I just wanna say: I did this!!

One of the reason I’ve been thinking more about this, is that on Friday I was cleaning here. It felt so good to do it. I’ve been without energy for so long that it was a huge victory. But after I was done, I sat down and looked around me.. Is this all??Is this all my life is all about?? (I know it’s more) Aftr I had done this I didn’t know what to do…

So my main issue now will be to find one thing and stick to it!! I have my blog and really proud I have managed to follow up this much for almost a year!!! 👏👏👏👏

Are you like me?? Please feel free to share with me;)

Have a great sunday all you lovely ppl💙